Keeping my head in the game.

I guess because I am not made of money and I cannot work on paying bills or budgeting every single day, I feel like I am not making progress. I knew that January would be a tough month for me as I got caught up on a few bills and started working towards my budget. Every bit of money I got from our paychecks went to catching up. I have 6 days till payday and we are just about broke. I know in the back of my mind that I AM making progress, and I keep reminding myself January was going to be rough, but I can't help but feel like nothing is happening. I can't wait till my next check so that I can feel like I am making a difference again.

I have been cleaning and organizing my house like a mad woman. It feels sooo nice to wake up and everything be clean and organized. I have started putting together a list of things I'd like to buy for my house to make organization a lil easier. For example, I need a few of those desktop wire shelves. I think they are about $3, but I would like to put canned foods on them in my pantry. Then I need more shelves in my office closet and in my garage. I got myself a label maker, but I ruined the first cartridge that came with it. I am not sure what I did, but the ink tape kept coming out with the actual labels I was making. I bought another cartridge online, but I am a little scared to try and use it. I am afraid I will break that one too!

I will be going to the college this coming week to get my books for class. I dread going. I looked up the price of the books in the bookstore, ONE of them is $182.  *gasp*  I found it online for $70 on amazon, but I don't really have to $70 to spend right now. I have to use my financial aid money for my school books, and I dread spending that much. Why do they have to make school books so expensive? Thank goodness I SOMEHOW qualify for the tiny bit of financial aid I get. I would be completely lost without it.
I am hoping that if I get accepted into my bridge program that I will qualify for the Vaneep program here at work. That will pay for my schooling, and I will get my regular paycheck every 2 weeks (as if I was working normally) for going to school. Now, I would have to come in on my school breaks, but heck yeah! I wouldn't neglect my kids by having to work AND go to school at the same time. Plus, I am very ADHD. I have a really hard time working and going to school at the same time. If I don't get the Vaneep program, I am going to have to quit working at the VA and go back to weekends only for home health. There is no way I can go to school all morning, come back to work, home school Jaida, spend time with my son and make good grades. Fingers crossed for Vaneep. Although, first I need to hope and pray I get selected to bridge! We will worry about Vaneep when we cross that bridge later.

62 days! I can't wait!!